23 years old | graduate student | awesome | audiophile
Jesse Ruben. What is there to say?
About a year and a half ago I watched as Jesse sang a new song entitled, “We Can”. That song ultimately changed my outlook on life. I embraced the message of that song, and applied it to many aspects of my life.
Last night, one that was pretty emotional, Jesse debuted a song not yet titled. I love being in the crowd when he debuts new songs. There is something about watching the vulnerability seep through the performance…and usually he knocks it out of the park. This time was no different. As he sang, "just because someone is different don’t mean their love matters less" my eyes filled with tears. Again, spot on. Take a listen, and be transported by the story that unfolds in these 5 minutes.
Some call me a fangirl for the guy, but it’s really an admiration for a guy who’s soul purpose in life is to touch people with his music, and that’s what he’s done. I see the world differently, I’ve become a better person, I’ve tackled obstacles I never thought I could, all because of his music. Isn’t that what music is supposed to do?
There are no words to describe the beauty, honesty, and emotion in these lyrics…I shed a few tears just thinking about the necessity of this message.
If this John Mayer lyrics holds true, then I must be a pretty big deal.
The most important lesson I’ve learned/truth I’ve uncovered is that relying on others for happiness is just not always practical (read: a recipe for disaster). I’ve realized over the years that I’ve missed out on some pretty awesome things solely because I waited for someone else to join me or to be invited.
Sure, most things are more fun with friends - however, if they constantly flake on plans*, how good of a friend were they in the first place? - but there comes a time when you learn to make your own fun.
This summer, I’ve easily had the most solo nights out - I like to call them self-dates, though I suppose I could find a better name - than ever before…and they were hands down some of the BEST NIGHTS!
Most of my solo dates were art or music-related, and as an artist of sorts, I think this actually helped me with some creative blocks.
For example, I took myself downtown one night to see the musical Anything Goes. I bought a cheap ticket that day, sat in the upper corner of the theatre surrounded by no one, and enjoyed it immensely. Another night, I drove to a little coffeeshop I’d never been to and enjoyed some great singer-songwriters. Earlier in the summer, I attended at least 4 days/nights of the Three Rivers Arts Festival by myself. I was able to walk around, talk to the art vendors, listen to some music, and not be bothered by anyone.
The most recent solo night out was actually the one that really inspired me to write this post. A miscommunication with some people led me to a small concert by myself. As I waited in line, another friendly soul informed me that there were very large spiders (and several of them) directly above my head. I thankfully moved to the other side of the sidewalk and had a nice conversation. Once inside, I gladly sat myself at the bar and readied myself for a great night of music.
Afterwards, I was pretty much set to go home, but was instead welcomed by the greatest group of strangers (including my spider-savior, the opening band, a couple of other fans, the headliner, and his band) to take some shots, and close the night at a nearby bar.
So, if I would’ve waited around for someone else to join me at the show or decided to not go for fear of being alone in public, I would’ve missed out on a pretty epic night. Lesson learned :)
So, in no particular order, I offer you a list of lessons I’ve learned this summer:
- There’s a TON of awesome people just waiting for you to meet them.
- People (in general) are more likely to approach you if you’re alone.
- Often, you are really your own best company.
- You learn to gain perspective when sitting places and watching people.
- You’re only a loser if you think it.
Had this thought the other day:
following your heart would be a hell of a lot easier if it was free.
but seriously though.
For me, one of the most frustrating things in life is money. Those who are born with it often have no ambition or drive to use it properly, while those who have to work hard to earn their money also tend to work extremely hard to get themselves to a point where they can use said hard-earned money to better themselves.
If only everyone in the world was given a set amount of money at birth, and their success, whether personal, financial, or otherwise, would be measured solely by hard work, ambition, and drive.
in the past 2 weeks, I’ve been told that it is “impossible” to complete my current graduate program on time and that my “paid job” is effecting (professor’s spelling, by the way…) my assignments.
now, the old me (pre-college, so around 2006-2007ish) would have probably cried about it for a while, then vented to anyone who would listen, but really struggle with what to do.
however, new & awesome me (thanks college!) still cried a little, but more out of frustration that my graduate professors truly don’t have any faith in me to finish the work and program that I’ve been doing for the past 19 months.
so, what did I do?
cried a tad, vented a little, threw some papers (come on, I’m only human!), then listened to some pick-me-up music (playlist will be posted soon!), sent some emails, set up some meetings, and am being a super adult about it.
I WILL complete this program by next spring because I refuse to compromise. I WILL continue to work a full-time job, commute, attend school full-time, pay all of my bills, and keep a social life.
because I CAN :)
I’m not usually the resolution type, but as I’m sitting here at work completing the last 2 hours of my 16 hour double, I figured there’s a few things I want to do this year (and for years to come…)
So here goes.
My 2013 Resolutions
1. Focus on the positive.
I tend to be kind of a downer at times…I think it’s time to change that.
2. Go to at least 1 concert/music event every month.
I recentlymade a list of pretty much every single concert/event I’ve gone to from 1994-2012. Over the last 5 years, I averaged 21 events per year. So 12 is completely possible!
3. Visit friends out of state.
For one of the first times ever, I have friends living outside of PA. So, I’m making it a priority to get myself in a car, train, plane, or whatever to go see them.
4. Save money.
Simply, I need to cut spending and save, save, save.
5. Become more comfortable in my own skin.
I didn’t want to make a cliche resolution to lose weight, and honestly I’m not sure I could pinpoint x amount of pounds I’d need/want to lose, so this resolution is basically my goal to be healthier and happier.
7. Make new friends.
It never hurts to make a few new friends.
8. Try at least 1 new thing each month.
In an effort to step outside of my comfort zone…this could be new foods, new drinks, new places, new jobs, new experiences, the possibilities are endless.
9. De-clutter (and de-stress)!
This resolution is already underway as I have finally taken the initiative to organize all of my clothes. I’m planning to go through my apartment room by room and de-clutter as much as I possibly can.
10. Follow my heart.
Self-explanatory. Who knows what’s best for me better than me?